Having a bestfriend isn’t like having one. Because I provide and I care for doesn’t mean that we are best friend but its just by a name. Because im the one who is doing it. I can drop many things and go help you out when you need me. I do it of free of will. I will always be there when I can. I can drop many things even with my friends and squeeze you in. I really don’t mind. The things that I do mind is this time I really needed you. You cant because your other friends need you. (Keyword bestfriend) I rarely ask for any help or any at all. When i really need that help you weren’t there. I really really need it you. There is no point of me and you being a BESTFRIEND. I really don’t get how I can do so much and you do so little. I really can’t stop thinking of it. I can’t stop thinking your someone that I cant rely on as a best friend. It hurts me to say I am really dissatisfied and disappointed in you and myself through out everything. I can’t help myself to think that way. I cant… Idk where this may lead. For now I’m just gonna take a break to think it through….
Hard summer sunday was my first rave. I loved it. This isn’t going to be my last I’m pretty sure of it. I enjoyed the wonderful girls I was with. And i hope they also enjoyed my presence as well. I wished the alcohol was a bit cheaper. I would of drank more. I was sobered the whole day and just made the effort of letting loose and having fun sobered. Proves I can have fun without being tipsy but with great friends :) love you guys and thanks for making my first experience remarkable.